What is in the past is the past!
I do have to say that I am still extremely pissed that I worked so hard for a piece of paper that would say I was an expert. Stupid piece of paper! I received my Master's diploma in the mail a few weeks ago and placed it in the university issued diploma holder. No, I am not happy with that diploma or holder but everyday gets better.
Lately, I have tried my very best to enjoy the easy life. You know, not worrying about writing your dissertation/thesis, keeping up to date with recent literature, and definitely not worrying about taking time to enjoy the family with NO regrets. As a student, I always worried that someone would see me taking time to enjoy a TV show, read a comic that is not PhD comics, or read a spicy, sexy novel. It is hard to transition to a non-academic life. I see and read the progress of all my family, friends and scholastic peers and I have to admit... I'm jealous.
One thing that I have learned from this is that I miss the busy life. I realize now, that at the end of my graduate career, the past three years, I also suffered greatly from impostor syndrome. And that what I needed was a little support from my advisor, a mention that I really did know my stuff. If you are a graduate student or post-graduate then you know that your advisor hardly tells you that really know your shit and maybe it is because they expect that you already know, that s/he knows, you know your shit. You are the expert of your research!
Last thought for this post: I am not happy with where I am in my life and I want MORE! I am not being challenged and I miss talking science.
Now I am off to pick up my daughter from preschool!!!
